Monday, January 23, 2006

My Love

It's been a difficult week for me. A lot of ups and downs emotionally.

I wont go into the details here but a few things keep popping up...

  • Emotions are unpredictable things, sometimes especially just when you think you have them mastered.
  • Relationships are seldom easy. And never when they matter so much to you.
  • I can't change what anyone else feels, so I just need to focus on myself.
  • I will trust that the Universe has a plan for me and that it wouldn't lead me down a road that goes nowhere.
  • I have a lot to be thankful for.
  • I need to do more Kala.
  • Polyamory is complicated because people have emotions (see #1)
  • No two loves are the same.
  • I am grateful for the love I have, but am I being greedy to worry that another might be slipping away?
  • Greedy or not, I love him.
  • See #4.


leatherapron said...

2 cents
I've never believed that the universe has a plant, or fate, or what have you. I do believe that relationships are very hard work. Very hard work. This might sound counter to everything that people tell others about relationships but I think a little bit of Jealousy/greed is a good thing, especially when it is communicated - that has been my personal experience. To put it into a bumpersticker, sometimes the flipside of jealousy isn't power and control, it is an offer of security.

yezida said...

One day, many months ago, I was thinking "non-monogamy is hard." And then had to stop myself and laugh. Because monogamy was even harder!!!!
Hugs to you.

carnivalia said...

I'm sorry that things are so hard for you right now, my love, but be secure in the fact that I will always love you.
Sweeet icon BTW.

iamthespark said...

I'm thinking of you guys and wishing the best for you! Hang in there. It's all worth it in the long run, isn't it?