Saturday, October 16, 2004

What a difference a day makes...

Well… I took a “mental health day” yesterday, which in my current living and business situation pretty much means that I spent the day doing as little as possible… preferring instead to play video games with Daniel, and listen to music and watch television.

It really was something that I have needed for awhile, although I didn’t know that beforehand. I really was kinda going crazy with some unresolved relationship issues that I had been largely keeping to myself. This was also probably exasperated by the fact that I seem to have made myself sick by a recent descent into self-destructive behavior in the form of smoking clove cigarettes. Now I have a cough and have lost my voice! Oh well… no biggie. I’ll try talking less and listening more. J

It’s funny (in a weird sort of way) but those problems that seemed so huge and crazy-inducing just a few days ago don’t seem all that large now. I’d like to say ‘I’m sorry’ to my boys who had to take a whirl on my Piscean emotional rollercoaster, and also say a big ‘thank you’ for still being willing to ride, even when it’s not such a fun thing to do.

We now return to your regularly scheduled programming…


iamthespark said...

Glad you're feeling better!
It's interesting to read that you've been smoking clove cigarettes lately. For about 2 or 3 weeks now, I've really been craving a clove cigarette. I've contemplated sneaking out to buy a pack or stopping in a tobacco shop on my way about my usual routines. Alas, I have not found a tobacco shop on my way about my usual routines. Usually when I start craving a cigarette, it's a menthol. This time it's clove. My smoking cravings don't come too often, either. I probably smoke 2 or 3 cigarettes in a year. I'll let you know if I find a good clove one to smoke... Ah, flavor country!

faerywolf said...

Don't do it! It totally fucked me up!!
I knew I shouldn't do it... I even had a dream about them the night before I went out and bought them as a precursor to going out dancing at a goth club in San Francisco (I had smelled then the week before and so the craving began...) I had about 3 that night... I know... pretty stupid... and maybe two the next day... now I am mostly without a voice and have an annoying occasional cough.
So, kids... DON'T SMOKE.
And cut your hair.
And get a job. ;)